addiction

hi. i'm jay.

**crowd goes... hi jay...**

i'm an addict.

i really can't remember when it all started or when i first got hooked with this addiction of mine. i can't help it. i can't resist it. i know all you need is just discipline. but, it's easier said than done. it's like when you're telling yourself, promising that this should be the last, and then, in just a few moments you break that promise to yourself. it's really hard to control this addiction. i can't get it out of my system. i know, i should try to control it. i know, i should find a way to free myself from this addiction. but, i can't. i just can't. i crave for it every single day. it's hard when you're addicted with something. it really is. but, how can you stop? how can you stop something so good.

its scrumptious meat. its sour yet tasty soup. yuuuuuummy. we kapampangans call it "sigang na babe(read: ba-beh)", in tagalog sinigang na baboy. i'm addicted with it. i can't help it. you should try it.

bloggernovela: as lovers go

NOTE: should i say more? check this out first before reading on.

WHAT'S HAPPENING: we left our dear beloved boboy on the mall stuttering, while confessing his feelings to mamay. babay, our female protagonist is on the fourth floor watching the scene between boboy and mamay on the ground floor. through her super hearing prowess mainly used for gossiping, she listens to the conversation between boboy and mamay...

mamay: i've gotta be honest. you're wasting your time if your fishing around here.

boboy: you must be mistaken. 'cause, i'm not fooling... this feeling is real.

mamay: you've gotta be crazy. what do you take me for? some kind of easy mark?

boboy: no, you've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion, but, i swear that you've got me all wrong....... all wrong....... all wrong....... but, you got me. i'll be true. i'll be useful. i'll be cavalier. i'll be yours my dear. and i'll belong to you, if you just let me through. this is easy as lovers go, so don't complicate it by hesitating. and this is wonderful as loving goes, this is tailor-made, what's the sense in waiting?

mamay: *hihirit sana, kaso di pa pala tapos si boboy**

boboy: i've gotta be honest, i've been waiting for you all my life. for so long i thought i was asylum bound, but just seeing you makes me think twice. and being here with you makes me sane, i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side. you've got wits... you've got looks, you've got passion , but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

shout!

i just wanted to shout! even if it's only through written words...

i just wanted to empty my mind of any negative thoughts that have been bothering me...

i just wanted to forget all the problems and relax for just a little while...

i just wanted to escape from all the pressure...

i just wanted to have a quiet time without any worries even for just a moment...

i just wanted to have sometime for myself...

i just want to escape from reality... even for just a second...

magical moment

"think of this moment as your greatest blessing. for this moment connects you to, surrounds you with, all your many other blessings...

the sights, the sounds, the textures and feelings in this moment provides endless level of richness for you to explore and experience. the thoughts you have in this moment can carry you to any place, any time and any possibility you dare to imagine...

whatever fulfillment you seek begins in this moment. all the goodness you have know is alive with you right here and now...

this moment is ripe with opportunity. it is the magical stage upon which you can act to truly make a difference...

the whole of the universe in its unimaginable vastness comes together in this moment. and you are now here to focus on that value, through your thoughts and actions, toward beautiful positive purpose...

here is the moment, a great gift that is now being born all around you. you know what to do."

-- Ralph Marston


** magkamaganak kaya si eric santos saka si ralph marston? puro sila moment eh..**

thinking out lout: nonsense and pointless

how pointless it is when some people say things they don't even mean. when they do things and regret doing it in the end. such nonsense when you say sorry over and over again without sincerity. how can they hope when deep inside they know that there's no chance at all?

falling down... literally

NOTE: as always, read the previous episode first before reading on..

what's happening?: si boboy (ang ating male protagonist) ay meron ng bagong love interest. we shall name her mamay. let's name boboy's previous love interest as well, she will be called, mandarin. as always, boboy is with his partner in crime babay. moving on with the story... btw, nasa mall sila boboy and babay..

boboy: so dude? paano na kaya. ano ng gagawin ko? pathetic.

babay: ninuninuninuninuninuninuninuninu

boboy: sheez, inatake ka na naman ng mental illness mo... pre si..

** nakita ni boboy si mamay na naglalakad magisa sa mall, si boboy nasa 4th floor, si mamay nasa 1st floor **

babay: un ba si mamay? dali! puntahan mo!! kausapin mo.. yayain mong manood ng movie or something..

boboy: can't pre.. natotorpe ako.. and besides wala na din naman akong pagasa sa kanya..

babay: arte mo naman.. *evil grin*

** [toinks] tinulak ni babay si boboy sa may edge ng 4th floor. eksaktong bumagsak si boboy sa harap ni mamay na nasa 1st floor **

babay: um, loko! buhay ka pa? *evil laugh*

boboy: **habang tinitignan ng masama si babay** !!@#$%^&*() mo!!!! buti na lang magaling ako sa acrobatics...

mamay: ok ka lang boboy?

boboy: **nagblush, nahiya sa sinabi** ok naman.. soooo... musta? err.. uhmmm... **pinagpapawisan** hmmm... **pumito** anong ginagawa mo dito sa mall? i mean.. err.. may kasama ka?? ahh.. uhhhm.. hmmm.. gusto mo ng kasama?? err.. **najejebs na sa sobrang kaba**.. hi.. hello.. **gulp**

mamay: ok ka lang? anong meron? parang najejebs ka? pawis na pawis ka pa. sobrang lamig naman dito sa mall ah. gusto mo ng tissue? gusto mo ng bantay sa may cr?

boboy: mamay.. **nagiba ang ihip ng hangin**... iiiiiiiiiiIIIIIIiiiiii... liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiIIIIkkkkkkke.. yooooooooooouuuuu...

mamay: **speechless**

first time mo?

first time mo? yup. it was my first time watching a movie in an imax theater. it was a good experience. the movie we watched was also good. it didn't stink but it didn't also passed the wooooooooow bar. btw, the movie was beowulf.

so how was the movie experience?

like i said, it was a good experience. i wanted to extend my arm and reach the stars of the paramount pictures logo because it was in 3d. i didn't. i didn't want to look like some geek. i also wanted to do it when the warner bros. logo was also shown.

i really wanted to watch beowulf. i know the story is considered as one of literature's most beloved piece. i also wanted to see how the cg graphics is. ok fine. i also wanted to see angelina jolie in an almost naked state. happy now? in any case, beowulf is a good movie to watch in an imax theater.

season 2!!

before reading on... try to check this out first ...

also, medyo nalilito na ako sa pag quote and unquote. di ko na alam minsan kung sino na ung nagsabi kung ung male protagonist ba or ung chick protagonist. kaya naisip kong bigyan sila ng pangalan. the male protagonist will be named boboy, and the lead female's name is babay. eto yata ung pumalit dun sa naisip ko na bloggernovela dati. hehe. anyways, the adventures and misadventures (may adventures ba sila?) of boboy and babay continues.. btw, nag skip na ako ng scene.. wala na kasi akong maisip na idudugtong eh..

the following takes place at aroung 8:00 p.m. - 10:00 p.m. two weeks after the last scene.

boboy: duuuuuuuuuuuuuude!!!!!!

babay: yo? long time no see.

boboy: parang two weeks lang eh. na-miss mo na ako agad?

babay: hinayupak na. ang kapal naman ng apog mo.

boboy: nagbabasakali lang. hehe. nga pala, may bago na akong crush!

babay: susmaryosep naman. para ka naman model, kung gaano kadalas magpalit ang mga model ganun ka din kadalas magpalit ng gusto.

boboy: kala ko kaya para akong model kasi mukha akong model eh. hehe.

babay: yup. mukha ka namang model eh. yung tipong mga model ng sapatos, slippers. para di makita ung mukha mo.

boboy: haha. korni. anyways, dati ko kasi siyang crush pero nawala ung pagkacrush ko sa kanya, tapos naging crush ko ulit pero kala ko di ko na crush pero ngayon crush ko na ulit. the problem is, may complications.

babay: may sayad? may psychiatric problem? may murderous intents? may suicidal tendency? may multiple personality disorder? or all of the above? kung all of the above, ok lang yun. in fact bagay na bagay nga kayo eh. eh ganun ka din kasi.

boboy: baliw! meron na kasi siyang gustong iba. pero dude.. the more i get to know her the more i get to like her...

freaky coincidence

bakit freaky coincidence? for sure nabalitaan niyo na naman ung sumabog kagabi sa may south wing ng batasan complex right? well, ganito kasi yun, yesterday nag status ako sa gtalk ng "KABOOOOOOOOOOOM" and then pinalitan ko ng "and then... KABOOOOOOOOOOOM". buti na lang wala akong contacts sa gtalk na taga nbi or pnp. baka sabihin ako pa ang may kasalanan at ako ang namboba. freaky di ba? hmmm.. di kaya nagkakaroon ako ng esp? or di kaya may curse ang gtalk at kung anong lagay mo na status eh mangyayari? eh pag may curse nga, lalagay ko ng status na "and then jessica alba fell in love with me". sulit! pero mga pre, medyo kinilabutan talaga ako sa coincidence na un. i know i know, mababaw.

anyways, tutal na-brought up na din naman ung bombing sa may batasan complex, eto ung point of view ko...

dumbass talaga ang pnp natin. walang kwenta. bwahahahaha. sino na nga ulit ung pnp chief nila? si razon! akalain mo nga naman na maglabas kaagad ng statement na galing daw sa kotse ni rep. akbar ung bomba. galing niya noh? hindi pa sila nag i-investigate nung nilabas niya ung statement na un. baka siya ung may esp. hehe. pero wait.. my esp is telling me something (nakampucha naman, talagang pinagpilitan na may esp eh noh) maglalabas ulit sila ng statement na hindi bomba un. na it was just methane gas plus diesel fumes kaya nagkaroon ng pagsabog. may industrial defects daw kasi ang pagkagawa sa batasan complex. i'm so bad. eviiiiiiiil.. bwahahahaha.

my blog is cheap!!!

yup! my blog is cheap. in fact it's for free! yes. for free! badtrip. how did i know?

check this out.

that site calculates how much your blog is worth. well, mine costs $0.00. cheap! sheez.

thinking out loud: martyrs

hmmm... bakit ganun? bakit kaya may mga tao na would gladly sacrifice anything for the one
they love? and i mean kahit na nasasaktan na sila eh go go go pa din. hmmmm.. just a thought...

nba analyst wannabe

are you a nba fan? if you are, then for sure you regularly visit their website. and if you regularly visit their website, you know about their nba experts' predictions. if not, well you can just check this out. in any case, i also want to be a nba analyst. like those experts, i also have my predictions on who will win the mvp, the rookie of the year, who will the championship etc. etc. etc. enough said, here is my prediction for this nba season.

ATLANTIC DIVISION WINNER: Boston Celtics
WHY: the C's big three are the best big three in the league right now. and if they stay healthy this season this could be bad news for the other team. KG, Ray and Paul Pierce working together? yup. they sure are. even though KG, and Ray were superstars from their old team and Pierce was the main man for the C's before KG and Ray were added, the big three doesn't mind sharing the ball - and that is unselfish basketball.

CENTRAL DIVISION WINNER: Chicago Bulls
WHY: ok ok, the bulls stink right now. and i mean they stink. they're standing is last in the division with a 1-5 win-lost record. so how will they be the central division winner you may ask. kobe is coming to town. well, that's just my prediction. and if he does comes to town, look out east, the bulls are back in business.

SOUTHEAST DIVISION WINNER: Washington Wizards
WHY: ok, like the bulls they stink right now. they also just have a 1-5 win-lost record. but, give them time. agent zero is still recovering from his surgery. caron butler and antown jamison are still finding their game.

NORTHWEST DIVISION WINNER: Utah Jazz
WHY: the jazz has a new stockton-malone combination with williams-boozer. williams is getting better. really better.

PACIFIC DIVISION WINNER: Phoenix Suns
WHY: come on, it's obvious. nash is on his mvp performance again. stoudamire is not 100% YET and their still winning. barbosa is still getting better. marion is still himself - mr. double double. their team is still the best offensive team in the nba.

SOUTHWEST DIVISION WINNER: San Antonio Spurs
WHY: no questions ask. the spurs are still hungry for another championship. and they still have what it takes to have a repeat. they still have the best defense in the league, and they have the offense to boast as well. duncan will still dominate the center position and parker, well he'll just do what he does best, win games.

MVP: Lebron James
WHY: he will carry his team to the playoffs. he's young and he's still improving. scary.

ROOKIE OF THE YEAR: Kevin Durant
WHY: should we have any other choice? he is the best rookie this year even if greg oden didn't get injured and was able to play.

EASTERN CONFERENCE CHAMPS: Cleveland Cavaliers
WHY: contradicting isn't it? i chose the bulls to be the atlantic division winner but yet i choose the cavs to be the eastern conference champs. why? lebron james will wake up in the playoffs. he will realize that he has not teammates. he'll change his philosophy. no more past first philosophy. he'll dominate and score score and score.

WESTERN CONFERENCE CHAMPS: Phoenix Suns
WHY: it's the suns time. they'll match up with either the mavericks or the spurs on the western conference finals but they'll win. they want a championship. and they want it bad.

NBA FINALS CHAMP: Phoenix Suns
WHY: like i said, it's phoenix time. and not to mention the cavs can't beat the suns.

FINALS MVP: Steve Nash
WHY: i'm a lebron james fan, but it's too early for them to win a championship. not to mention lebron is all alone. he needs help in order to win a championship.

so there goes my prediction. this is only my opinion. anything can still happen. and i may even change my predictions. it's just an opinion from me, a nba fan. if you have your own nba predictions, feel free to share.

season 2?

before reading on, check this out first...

"baliw ka ah! bakit mo ako sinaksak ng swiss knife. buti kamo mala peter petrelli ako at may cellular regeneration ability ako."

"tsk. tsk. malala na yan. ang oa mo naman. di naman kita sinaksak ng swiss knife eh. nag i-imagine ka na naman ng kung ano ano. nababaliw ka na ba?"

"sabi ko naman sayo, i'm mentally deranged."

"oo nga pala. kalalabas mo nga lang pala sa mental. bwahahahaha."

"wuteva!"

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"uy, may nagmamahal."

"bwahahahahaha. pre, alam ko ng problema mo. tamang tama 'tong naforward na text sa akin. hindi ka philophobic, di ka din torpe."

"eh ano na naman?"

"isa kang ma-pride na tao!"

"huwaaaaat?"

"basahin mo 'tong txt...."

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"implications of a terrible disease called pride....

- you always don't want to be the first one to do the step to be with someone
- you always try to hide your feelings
- you don't want others to know that you're hurt
- you're afraid of telling someone he/she is special
- you're afraid of losing someone but is afraid to show it
- you're afraid to love someone whom you think can't love you back
- you're so aware of what others think that you can't do what you want
- you're not happy
- in the end, you lose everything without even trying to have it"
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"sapul na sapul ka tsong! bwahahahahaha. para kang nilagyan ng target tapos na-bullseye ka. bwahahahahaha"

"well! excuuuuuuuuuuuuuusssse me, princess! hindi ako ma-pride. ma-surf ako. it has active cleansing agent para ang labada'y sobrang linis"

"aysusmaryaabadginuo! ang korni mo pre. malala na yang sakit mo. you need help dude, and you need it fast."

"seriously, ma-pride nga ba ako?"

sa pag ulan

note: read this first before continuing....

"ang lakas ng ulan. may payong ka bang dala? paano ka uuwi?"

"wala. mukha ba akong nagdadala ng payong. haaay. sa lahat ng ayaw ko eh pag umuulan eh. ok lang sana pag nasa bahay ka. masarap matulog. masarap magpahinga. pero pag ganitong nasa labas. problema."

"dami mo namang sinabi. tinanong ko lang naman kung may dala kang payong saka kung paano ka uuwi eh."

"tsk. gusto kong mag emote eh. bakit ba. wala akong dalang payong. saka baka mag taxi na lang ako mamaya. sabay ka?"

"sige. para libre. hehe."

"susmaryaabadginoo naman. o siya siya. pero... hintayin mo na lang ako dito.. may pupuntahan muna ako saglit."

"ha? saan ka naman pupunta?"

"diyan lang. may kikitain lang ako."

"ok."

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"ei. sensya na sa abala ah. may gusto lang akong sabihin kaya nakipagkita ako."

"hehe. ayos lang un. ano ung sasabihin mo? parang seryoso ah. baka naman kelangan ko ng tissue or ng bimpo niyan ah."

"haha. hindi naman."

"sige. shoot."

"wala lang. i just wanted you to know that i really like you."

**NAPAISIP : nakampucha. english na naman yun ah. derecho pa. kaso... ang corny naman.**

"wow. thanks. pero...."

"pero?"

"i already like someone else. in fact, hinihintay nga niya ako ngayon diyan sa may kanto eh"

"ah ganun ba. hehe. ok lang. sensya na sa abala ah. ingat na lang pauwi."

**NAPAISIP ULIT: !@#$%^&*() yun! may dala akong swiss knife. saksakin ko kaya?!?!"


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"o, saan ka nanggaling?"

"sa may tabi. ni-meet ko siya. sinabi ko na din sa kanya na gusto ko siya."

"whoa! anong nangyari. kwento kwento. dali."

"too little too late. hehe."

"awwwwwwww. wawa ka naman. may dala akong swiss knife, gusto mo sirain na natin buhay nila?"

"haha. huwag na. nasira ko na buhay nila. pwede naman kitang kunin lawyer di ba? sabihin mo na lang sa court mentally deranged ako."

"nakngtokwa. haha! sige. akong bahala sayo. pero ok lang yan. it was really not meant to be."

"yup. it was really not meant to be."

"nakahanap pala ako ng payong. kinuha ko dun sa mamang pulubi. binigyan ko na lang siya ng pambili ng yosi."

"nakampucha! kinawawa mo naman yung tao. sige, share tayo. ayaw ko ng mabasa ng ulan."

"haha. sige. libre mo naman ako sa taxi eh."

"bwiset."

"teka, paano mo pala na-arrange na mag meet kayo?"

"telepathy my dear friend. telepathy."

**KUMUHA NG SWISS KNIFE: **tsigh** sinaksak**

thinking out loud: short? shorter?

NOTE: this post is nonsense. it's just me thinking out loud. if you're busy i suggest stop reading now. you might get irritated or something. in any case, you can also help me decide. or you can just knock some sense in to me.

it's been two plus years. yup. it's been more than two years since i last saw myself having a short, well shorter haircut. wala lang. i've just been thinking lately of having a haircut. a shorter haircut. para naman maiba. pero.. yup. may pero. kelangan ng pero. i don't want to have that "tsk. bakit pa ako nagpagupit" feeling. sheez. pathetic, ain't i?